Alice Revisited

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland and Through The Looking Glass may seem like a manic trip of a children's tale on first glance. Our book club tackled this tale as an earlier read, and I joking pulled some lessons out to share at that time. Still, I was surprised to see an image and a quote from Through the Looking Glass in recent business meeting.

In "Through the Looking Glass" Alice and the Queen are running faster and faster without seeming to go anywhere. Exhausted from this, Alice says "Well, in our country, you'd generally get to somewhere else - if you ran very fast for a long time, as we've been doing." The Queen replies, "Now, here you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!"

So what is the lesson I am to take from this? If the business thinks this is important enough to show in a planning presentation, I have to show my boss and my management that I am running twice as fast for the good of the business. As the economy recovers, we must not appear to stand still as other companies may surpass us.

True Grit

People do not give it credence that a fourteen-year-old girl could leave home and go off in the wintertime to avenger her father’s blood but it did not seem so strange then, although I will say it did not happen every day.

So begins Charles Portis’ epic novel, True Grit, the story of Mattie Ross and her presumptuous quest for justice. When her father’s killer is not pursued by any “law,” she takes it upon herself to dispense retribution for the cold-blooded killing, enlisting the help of federal marshal Reuben “Rooster” Cogburn, full of “true grit” she had heard; and inheriting a Texas Ranger who had been on the killer’s trail for four months, chasing him on charges of the murder of a senator.

I love a good Western and this one includes a woman (and adolescent!) of substance, something too often missing from great Westerns. Mattie’s fortitude, determination, and abundance of her own “grit” drive the heart of the story. She is impudent and pious and has no time for the vices of men, but she takes aim and makes herself the center of the story.

Ryan and I saw the movie at the Hopkins “dollar” theatre and thought it was fantastic. The Coen brothers, St. Louis Park natives and direction/production dynamos, brought the book to life beautifully. It was one of those films that make me understand why cinema is an art form. It doesn’t hurt that Jeff Bridges is brilliant and Matt Damon is brilliant and foxy, but the cinematic scope of the film both brought the story to life and gave it an authenticity often missing in films as producers seek to glamorize stories. The Coen brothers are not overly concerned with the characters’ beauty, but of their internal fiber and the beauty of human nature as it lies, flawed and filthy though it may be.

I haven’t yet seen the original version of the film but hope to soon. I highly recommend both the novel and the new film, though it is visually a bit graphic, but such was the nature of the West.

Emily Dickinson

My favorite poem is one by Emily Dickinson that begins “I dwell in Possibility-“ and having been given a lovely gilt-edged book calling itself The Collected Poems of Emily Dickinson by my parents many years ago, last year I finally creaked open it’s spine intending to read it cover to cover to find the source of my favorite line. Alas, having (at last) come to the end this winter, I hadn’t found the gem and was beginning to fear that the verse I loved was a mirage, inauthentic, and quickly fading in its glory.

I had found the rest of the verse online but knew it didn’t count unless I saw it on a page in a book with Emily’s name by it. As I searched the shelves of Magers & Quinn one afternoon in January, I found it in a couple texts, which was a dear relief, but was still curious as to why it wasn’t to be found in my lovely edition. A helpful bookseller answered my query with a most logical response: “collected” isn’t a synonym for “complete.” Ah. Thank you.

Thusly, I am a dope. I printed the poem from the Almighty Internet and taped it to the inside cover of my pretty gilt-edged book, full of my handwriting in the margins:

I dwell in Possibility—

A fairer house than Prose—

More numerous of Windows—

Superior—for Doors—

Of Chambers as the Cedars—

Impregnable of Eye—

And for an Everlasting Roof

The Gambrels of the Sky—

Of Visitors—the fairest—

For Occupation—This—

The spreading wide my narrow Hands

To gather Paradise—

Oh Emily, your love of simple verse is so cumbersome! For so long I’ve wanted to love you! To understand what on Earth you were feeling when you wrote. Mostly, I experience abrupt confusion. What are you talking about?! After months, (years!) of trying, I have resigned myself to allow room for growth and love what I can pick out, what I can glean meaning from. For instance: “There is no frigate like a book/to take us lands away,/Nor any coursers like a page/Of prancing poetry.” I know! I know this feeling.

As I revisit the text I find others, many, that I marked with made-in-Minnesota, 3M-issue flags and bookmarks of all kinds. I feel fondness for many of Emily’s poems, some of the longer ones even. I’m not so dense!

I have no life but this,

To lead it here;

Nor any death, but lest

Dispelled from there;

Nor tie to earths to come,

Nor action new,

Except through this extent,

The realm of you.

Oh dear! The passion! The desire! Did spinster Emily have a Love? Was it her quiet and cursing God? Was she a Protestant nun? Who on Earth is she talking about?

Wild nights! Wild nights!

Were I with thee,

Wild nights should be

Our luxury!

Futile the winds

To a heart in port—

Done with the compass,

Done with the chart.

Rowing in Eden!

Ah! the sea!

Might I but moor

Tonight in thee!

Yikes! She goes on, in praise of Nature, God, Time, & Eternity. We dance around the classics, never getting to know them intimately but rather, acknowledging that they are Classic and therefore Wonderful. I want to know them, want to say: I’ve read that, I get it. Or: Give me a break! It’s not that great. Or: What do you mean you’ve never read it? How can you understand anything at all without knowing the truths from this text?

So I started with Emily because she wrote short poems and they weren’t intimidating but I underestimated the weight of brevity and the depth of bumblebees and God. Perhaps the most important thing to remember about Emily is that her words weren’t meant to be read by others; she wrote as many of us breathe: feverishly, out of need, and with gusto. She existed in her little room in her white gown to leave behind the documentation of her personal musings for the validation of our similar thoughts. Thanks Em.

I will leave you with this active verse, that hearkens a bit to Lewis Carroll:

Could I but ride indefinite,

As doth the meadow-bee,

And visit only where I liked,

And no man visit me,

And flirt all day with buttercups,

And marry whom I may,

And dwell a little everywhere,

Or better, run away

With no police to follow,

Or chase me if I do,

Till I should jump peninsulas

To get away from you,--

I said, but just to be a bee

Upon a raft of air,

And row in nowhere all day long,

And anchor off the bar,--

What liberty! So captives deem

Who tight in dungeons are.

A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

I am a big fan of the 90s. This desires some clarity though: I’m not talking about this 90s, I’m talking about this 90s. This is fun. How about some more? The 90s taught me that in this life there are nothing but possibilities. They also taught me that sometimes you have to get to know someone before you judge. And talk about great music, the 90s was the decade. I am unashamedly into 90s music. I’m waiting for the day all these damn hipsters give up the ghost and just admit they mourn the loss of the grunge scene, albeit with tighter clothes, beards, and terrible beer. Nirvana aside though, how about the Gin Blossoms, Tori Amos, Toad the Wet Sprocket, and the Indigo Girls? Thank you 1990s.

Having read Dave Eggers’ A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius was a bit of a let-down though. In it, the author details in rambling, stream-of-consciousness the details of his family’s colossal loss when his parents die five months apart and he and his siblings move from suburban Chicago to Berkeley in 1993. He is tasked with raising his 6-year-old brother as a newly minted college grad and embarks on a journey into self-depreciating struggles with a magazine start-up with a motley group of friends. I can appreciate the themes and subject, but the writing style made this memoir painful to read.

What stood out for me in the text was the author’s struggle against conformity and the synthetic nature that the 90s sometimes collapsed into. The reason so much great music came out of the 90s was because people were searching for an escape from the falseness and cloying nature of the culture, also expressed in much 90s music. The 80s economy had revived when Clinton took office and everything was moving toward greatness again. Some folks fought against that sense of entitlement with rejection of their parent’s religion and lifestyles, choosing instead to build for themselves a new world concerned with sincerity of life purpose. I see this pursuit in Eggers’ memoir, I see his angst at the mindlessness of MTV and the culture of ignorance that some clung to. I can appreciate it.

The book was a Pulitzer Prize finalist and probably for good reason. It breaks boundaries with both its subject matter and style. I am glad that the generation of folks 10 years older than me is beginning to have their own voices heard in the media. I’m glad that they’re able to represent the 90s for what their experiences actually were and not what media interpreted at the time. I’m glad the likes of Cher in “Clueless” were just blips on the radar. I’m glad that out of the ashes of N’Sync we got Justin Timberlake even. Most of all, I’m glad the 90s didn’t just end with 9/11 and that there is still value to be found in the ethos and effort put into them. Eggers’ expresses this in a characteristically 90s way, through writing, angst, and fervor for life.

Lolita by Vladamir Nabokov

"Don't stand. Don't stand so. Don't stand so close to me." During Nabakov's first person novel from the perspective of a pedophile, those Police lyrics which eventually reference the story kept playing in my mind. Maybe it's because I didn't quite catch on to the style and humor of the author.

I think it's very brave of Nabokov to place himself in the shoes of a personality in which society finds not only immoral, but outright disgusting. He did an excellent job as well. The pedophile tries to justify his actions, calling it true love. Although at first glance you may think the author is on the side of the pedophile, he shows the abusive nature of the relationship; the pedophile becomes very possessive and even desperate at times when he feels he lost control.

I don't have anything else to say about that.

To a well-worn friend: Travels with Charley, John Steinbeck, and the US of A

I do like the feel of a book once I’ve finished savoring it: worn like a favorite shoe. One can feel slight creases in the cover, perhaps a curled page or minor tear in the spine. Woe is the book that, once having been read could be returned to a store without question, not showing any mark upon itself expressing how it was once treasured, tossed in a bag, fallen from a bed, maybe wedged under papers on a desk and retrieved with tea-stained edges.

Of course, it does cause grief to see harm done to a favored text. One must never throw a book. Such blatant disrespect is not to be tolerated. One doesn’t wish to see a page torn or a cover harshly creased or a spine broken so one page is the constant middle. Rather, one hopes that through gentle wear and afternoons spent in a favorite resting place that the tome will emerge as worn as we: a bit older, having discovered some new wisdom, but never beaten or broken. Just cared for, sought, and enjoyed.

I wrote these thoughts after I finished reading a much worn copy of John Steinbeck’s Travels with Charley: In Search of America last week. I picked it up after finishing Bill Bryson’s The Lost Continent: Travels in Small-Town America which was an easy read but Bryson was so crabby the whole time that I needed something to clean my palette. I thought Steinbeck would cheer me up and I was right. I decided with Travels with Charley that I love John Steinbeck. I’ve always wanted to love a classic American author, someone who would make me feel like I’m really a part of the literary scene in our country because I understand his writing. I already love plenty of work by female authors so I was looking specifically for a male author. I tried loving Fitzgerald but nothing was as wonderful as The Great Gatsby and I tried loving Hemingway but I couldn’t figure out how.

I’ve found my old man in Steinbeck for his simple truths:

“…we do not take a trip; a trip takes us…”

“…in my own life I am not willing to trade quality for quantity.”

“A sad soul can kill you quicker, far quicker, than a germ.”

“There are as many worlds as there are kinds of days…”

Is that overkill? I don’t care. He chooses his words to exactly fit what he wants to say. He acknowledges his weaknesses and doesn’t apologize for them. He lays out his fears and his joys as equals. He is so genuine I feel as if I’ve met him just from reading this one book of his. (I’ve read others but Travels with Charley being something of a memoir is a bit more personal.)

Bryson, for his part, had some good things to say too when he wasn’t being such a grouch. He held me when he wrote: “I wanted to step outside my front door and be somewhere.” Isn’t that what we all strive for? Meaning in our lives? Can we find it in the spaces we inhabit? Can we make the spaces of our lives be somewhere? How?

Bryson, as I’ve mentioned in an earlier post, is quite funny. I particularly enjoyed his observation that “…American radio is designed for people who have already lost their minds” and I agree wholeheartedly but for one small detail: in Minnesota we are fortunate in that we have MPR and more specifically: The Current.

The Lost Continent (1989) and Travels with Charley (1969) share a common theme in that they are both about travels through the United States and even though neither of them had anything decent to say about Minnesota, they were neat paired together. I wonder had retrieved my copy of Kerouac’s On the Road (1951) from an old family friend if I could have had a travel trifecta. I read it many years ago and I think it might have been over my head. I love travel and the thrill of discovery and these three books allow for these joys when I don’t have the resources so thank you, gentlemen.

This is a particularly appropriate day for discussing discovery as it is the 25^th anniversary of the Challenger explosion and the death of seven NASA astronauts. There are many types of travel, many motivators and destinations, but none so heartbreaking as a journey that ends in violence and catastrophy. Some seek truth and others wonder; may our journeys always bring us safely home once more, wherever that may be.

Traveling mercies.

Best Love Story: Shakespeare vs. Austen...GO

When our club began, around a bonfire on an expectant May evening last spring, the idea was that we would challenge ourselves and one another, accompanied by like-minded folk and good things to eat and drink. For instance, none of us had read Jane Austen’s Pride & Prejudice which, to the three of us, seemed rather appalling. For my part, it had been assigned to the Advanced Placement English class when I was in high school and not being party to that particular curriculum, I figured I wasn’t really smart enough to handle it. As I approached the graduation date for my master’s work, I thought it might be that I am finally smart enough to read Austen and a dear friend convinced me that I might even enjoy it (thanks Liz!).

Needless to say, our first club read was Pride & Prejudice and I loved it. I think I’d like to give it another go, see what else I catch, but my earlier suspicions came to fruition: I was both capable and smitten. I am Elizabeth Bennett. Dear Mr. Darcy: Whatever you want. You got it. I’m yours.

Now, months later, I read Shakespeare’s Romeo & Juliet in preparation to see the show at the Guthrie Theater with my Love. As we read it together, me for the third time, I realized that I don’t actually like the story at all. Two teenagers give liberty to their hormones during a life stage when there is no room for compromise or accommodation, seek council from a priest with his own agenda, and, despite the autonomy they think they have from their social groups, feel they have no option but to kill themselves. This is awfully desperate if you ask me; and not the kind of sexy desperate in Sarah McLachlan’s “Possession,” but an unreasonable kind of desperate, like an overly tired, feverish four-year-old throwing a temper tantrum over a well-established bedtime routine. Dear Romeo and Juliet: You’re fourteen. Get over yourselves.

What Romeo & Juliet does have going for it is the amiable Benvolio, the ruthless Tybalt, the raucous Mercutio, and such brilliant writing as “Ask for me tomorrow and you shall find me a grave man” and the whole “but soft!...” nonsense. Also Shakespeare. Who’s to argue with Bill anyway? No self-respecting indigenous English speaker would argue that he was brilliant with a pen, even if you don’t get it or enjoy it. Bravo sir.

After reading the books, one can move on to picking movies apart. Both stories have a modern version and a slightly less modern version. Let’s begin…

In seventh grade, in a private, Catholic school, it was thrilling even for me (a girl) to see Juliet’s boob. One boob. Wow, we’re adults now, the school says so. As if that wasn’t enough to handle as an adolescent, Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes had to go and make brilliant work out of the script with Baz Luhrman. As I watched the film again last week I thought: Boy were they devastatingly beautifully and stunningly talented. Yikes. Also Baz Luhrman is kind of awesome.

On to "Pride & Prejudice:” there is a five-hour, critically accurate BBC version and a more modern film starring Kiera Knightly. The BBC film boasts an exact portrayal of the text and made up for its length by employing Colin Firth to play Mr. Darcy. That was a wise choice. (Did you see him in “Love Actually?” “Bonita Aurelia…” sigh.) The second film, being not quite as true a reproduction, was visually more stunning, a bit darker with stronger sexual tension (see Sarah McLachlan’s “Possession” once again), and an almost-as-sultry-as-Colin-Firth-Mr.-Darcy in Matthew MacFayden. Also a wise choice.

Needless to say, Pride & Prejudice was my favorite all around: book, movie, story. The two stories really can’t be compared, they’re just so different. But as two of the greatest love stories ever told, comparisons are bound to be made. What are some of the other great love stories? Please share, especially if they are lovely like Pride & Prejudice and not ridiculous like Romeo & Juliet.

The Hunger Games

I've had a problem with reading lately. I can't seem to stick with one book and finish it. The books haven't been bad, it's just that the library keeps sending me ones from my request list, so I have to read those first before they are due. So even though my last post was at the end of December, there has been reading progress. The books in queue are Cleopatra, A Life; One, Two, Three, Infinity, Facts and Speculation of Science; Anne of Green Gables, Sherlock Holmes, and Shop Class as Soul Craft.

The latest diversion was a trilogy by Suzanne Collins called the Hunger Games Trilogy. It is a set of juvenile fiction books set in the near, post-apocalyptic United States. It's these types of books that make library waiting lists seem to take forever and tempt a person to go buy the series just to see what happens next. The story starts with The Hunger Games, continues with Catching Fire and ends with Mockingjay. The main charcter is teenager Katniss Everdeen. She's a female hero you root for, but probably would not want to be in her shoes.

For 74 years, what remains of the United States has been divided up into the Capitol and 13 districts. In an effort to keep the districts under control, The Capitol maintains propoganda and strict discipline to keep each district relying on help from the Capitol without having much to do with other district. To remind them of this reliance and warn against rebellion, the Capitol hosts the annual Hunger Games where a male and female teenager from each district is selected during the reaping and is sent to an arena to fight to the death during a televised "celebration." The first book features the 74th annual Hunger Games. During this episode, Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark represent District 12 in a highly unusual Hunger Games.

In Catching Fire, Katniss' performance in the previous Hunger Games has sparked dissent in the districts. As part of her role as victor, she is to travel to the other districts for celebrations, even as she as to face the families of those she has killed in the Hunger Games. Despite warning and her best effort to avoid trouble, her presence inflames more people in the districts to rise against the Capitol.

With Mockingjay, the rebellion begins to take place. Secret alliances are brought to light and the series comes to a satisfying, if not happy, ending.

I realize I am being vague with the book descriptions, but I do not want to give anything away if you readers decide to try the series. Here's my warning: be prepared to start and finish a book in one day or you may have trouble sleeping as your brain tries to guess what will happen next.

A call to promiscuous readers: support your local bookseller

I had the great pleasure of visiting two independent booksellers that I claim as mine this week: Magers & Quinn in Uptown and Amazing Alonzo Paperback Exchange in Duluth. Before the holidays I made a trip to a retail behemoth that shall remain unnamed. As I searched in vain for something lovely, I shuddered as I walked through the children’s section: toys as far as the eye could see. Miles away from such aberrations, Magers & Quinn and Amazing Alonzo offer a respite from retail stores masquerading as booksellers to the masses.

Magers & Quinn is the largest independent bookseller in Minneapolis (as per their blog) and sell mostly used texts and new releases. Their staff is knowledgeable, unobtrusive, and congenial. The location is in trendy Uptown but don’t let this deter you: it is a space of genuine value to the community. The atmosphere within is one that could easily accommodate any bibliophile or promiscuous reader: good lighting, high shelves, narrow passages, and ample poetry and children’s sections (among others, these happen to be of particular interest to your author).

Last week my mother and I visited with no real aim but to find a treasure. I wanted something used, something carefully worn, something classic. I found Elizabeth Barrett Browning’s Sonnets from the Portuguese. The edition is thin and not altogether pretty, but the sonnets are punctuated with letters between Elizabeth and her husband, poet Robert Browning. When I finish reading Emily Dickinson’s collected works I’ll start this. It’s nice to be reading poetry alongside whatever else I am reading; plus poetry looks so lovely on a nightstand.

The other text I found was a true treasure: a copy of Longfellow’s collected works including “Paul Revere’s Ride” which sparked an intense love of history in my ten-year-old soul many years ago. The book is hardcover with sparse illustrations and has a little open-sided box to protect it (which itself is rather worse for the wear). Inside the front cover is scripted: June 1946 Happy Birthday Harley Love Aunt Flora. This was an intensely satisfying find and I would have bought it for that inscription alone had I not also wanted the book for my own shelf. (Detour: I encourage readers to explore the Forgotten Bookmarks blog.)

The next day I had the great joy of traveling to Duluth for a weekend with friends. This is an annual trip to our old college haunt and for the past couple years has been the only trip to Duluth that we make. I make a point of always stopping at Amazing Alonzo Paperback Exchange. This gem is on 19^th and Superior Street and is run by Barb Plumb who always remembers my name and asks after my family. Barb offers all her used books at 90% of their cover price with the exception of hardcovers which all sell for $3. Exchanged books gain you credit for 90% of their worth, which can be used toward 60% of any books you purchase. If it sounds complicated (or if I have it wrong) don’t worry about it, Barb will handle the arithmetic and you’ll get quality used books at a fantastic price.

Alonzo’s is deceptively delightful. It is a sunny cavern that meanders from the front room full of novels, biographies, westerns and classics, through a narrow hall lined with comedic and political texts, around a literarily congested corner full of how-to insights and spiritually inclined authors, into the back room, its shelves positively bursting with romance novels that sell by the grocery bag ($5). I found Louise Erdrich’s Antelope Wife and Gabriel Garcia Márquez’s Of Love and Other Demons. I haven’t read either but I plan to try loving them both. (Who couldn’t try to love anything written by the authors of The Master Butchers Singing Club and One Hundred Years of Solitude after all?)

The lesson is this: find yourself an independent bookseller or two and support them. Go to their events, exchange your books with them, buy your books from them, and treasure them as you would a dear friend. They do great service to the communities they inhabit simply by existing. Some are highly motivated and involved like Magers & Quinn, supporting book clubs, hosting speakers and events, and have an intense internet presence; others like Amazing Alonzo Paperback Exchange are hidden, belonging to their community alone, loved by as many people as their proprietor can accommodate, not inclined to stretch because they don’t need to, but comforting and sunny.

Supporting your local independent bookseller ensures that your community will maintain a house of value for bibliophiles and promiscuous readers. They tend to nurture well-informed and unabashedly open-minded folks who treasure even the worst sort of writing (thank you for that!) and the least important text with unadulterated joy. There is no pretense or judgment, read what you like and cherish it. Lest the behemoth bookstores squeeze out classic booksellers, save yourself and find a literary home in your community. Then tell me about it.

"A Cedar Cove Christmas" by Debbie Macomber

I received a text for Christmas from a coworker from an author that writes a novel every season. This was the Christmas story for 2008, not to be confused with THE Christmas Story.

A young woman named Mary Jo Wyse is unexpectedly pregnant and due 2 weeks after Christmas. She and her 3 brothers live together, and they fell obliged to take care of her since their parents' died, and the father of her baby is scum bag. She is sick of them being over protective, and discussing how they will "take care of" said scum bag, so she decides to go to his home town Christmas Eve to inform his parents of the baby, and that she has no intentions of involving Scum Bag. While in his hometown, she is stranded, and there is no hotel rooms for her. A librarian named Grace offers to host her for the night, but only has room in her apartment located in the barn. However, while Grace's family is at Christmas Eve service, Mary Jo unexpectedly goes into labor. Meanwhile, her brothers (the 3 Wyse men) learn about her trip, and are on their way over ... bearing gifts. They get lost, and further misdirected from King's bar. Luckily, they saw lights in the sky, that bring them right to the home where Mary Jo has given birth (at least there's an EMT in this version) in the barn. Everything turns out to be the most wonderful Christmas Eve for all involved.

Cute story, simply and fast read, I appreciate the gift, but I won't be looking for the 2011 version. I'd rather read it from the Bible.